im a fucking bitch who deserves nothing but pain
September 14, 2004, 5:47 pm
maybe you should think about how it's like with me. it isn't worth being sad about. hiding behing a blank face and pretending to care less won't fool anybody.
i do like you, i love and admire everything about you.
i dont mean anything i say if i tell you "you make me wanna fucking die everyday"
that was just another thing i said to push you away. because as much as i want you as my friend, i dont deserve it.
sometimes i need people.
and judging by the hell i went through today, i need you.
i dont know what i was thinking.